"Depression"

And now its turn to class12!  It was the most important time of my life as my future career somehow depends on this result.. but i was unaware of this!  i consoled myself by thinking i will do well at last.. Soon i was in a relationship! and it was also a fun for me..  Everything went well except my studies, cuz i was failing in my monthly exams! Teachers also hated me for this kind of behaiviour... so they kept me in remedial classes(extra classes for weak students). But, the last month before the board exam- feb,2010!- this was my worst time in my life. My teachers complained my dad about my failing marks and my dad got to know about all the lies i told him.  And soon everyone in my family stopped talking with me and dint allowed mee to interact with my friends, i couldnt tell them that i didnt do it intentionally. I was feeling very lonely! My parents took my cell phone and stopped me watching tv and computer.  Even i broke my relation. I was felt so helpless that even i thought of suicide, but i didnt have that much courage to do so.



Soon my board exams came and at last my remedial classes ended somehow! With a period of one month i passed my 12th board exam! Then i started to study for entrance exams.. and after almost 1month my entrance exams also passed!
 And now it was time to face the class12 board result. And to my expectation it was 70%. My dad was very offended with me! But still he talked with me for the sake of filling forms for various colleges. He brought many forms of different colleges and i filled whatever he said me to do! And being unaware of the fact that something awesome is going to happen in my life i was waiting for it. :)

"School life"- extended

After passing class10,  i made new friends... my old friends changed their schools! My new friends were also very nice... Actually they were awesome! As days passed when i was in class11, i made more and more friends, and the interesting fact is- my parents also liked few of them! So at least i can indulge with them!  :P
When i started to talk with my new friends, i got to know about their living style... and i compared them with myself! Then i found myself so down to earth... and then i tried to make myself free and smart! So i started to lie to my parents.. and went out for hangouts with my friends! I was really enjoying my life.. My life was great and cool! Soon i made friends(girls), and started to roam with them also.. In a few words- I was flying high  :P
                   Days passed like this and my days went enjoying ... But the bad part of my life started when i realised that my friends maintained their studies as well as their masti!  Soon exams arrived.. and everything was dark in front of me!! Most of my friends cleared every exam with heavy marks( heavy means which is unexpected for me), i too cleared but with pass marks! Soon after the exams, i started to study.. but soon my gears reversed and again went back to old masti with my friends!! :D
  Like this my class11 passed with 68% aggregate! My dad kicked me for this awesome result! I went crying  to my friends home... and he consoled me by telling that we will do good next time! yes "we", because neither i did well, nor he.. still he was better in studies from me!  :-)

"MY Feelings- school life"

We cant share all of our feelings with our parents... same is with me. So i to wanted a friend who could always be my best buddy ever! But it didnt seemed to be happenned with mee..             

I have many friends and all of them are awesome... but none was like whom i wanted.. When i was in school only, i wanted a freind like that!

But as my height increased, i realised that it was me who never stopped expecting from others..!  :P

Many guys helped me and wanted to be my friend but i cudnt ever realise that.. Upto class 10, i was a silent but naughty boy..  I dint had many friends that time.... I had my world in my home only! I dint talked with girls much. I dint even went out to play or hangout with my friends..  My parents didnt wanted me to indulge with my few friends cuz they thought that my friends arent good!  So i dint indulged with most of the boys in my class... and boys bullied me!  But i had to obey my parents.... Still i was happy in home! :)

My first post in my first blog!

Hey guys.. This is my first post of my blog!  I always wanted to have my own blog and today i had created my own. well, many things i want to write!! 

                         There are many feelings and thoughts in our mind which we cant tell or express to anyone but still we want to share it to someone... Those feelings should be hidden, i feel if you write those feelings in your words through few lines then its the best way to share it! :)

        Feelings can be of any kind.. happy, sorrow, pain, and lots more! so feel free to comment to my posts.. and please click on the like button if you like my blog. It feels great when you write something and people likes it. :)   May be some of the posts in this blog relates a part of your life.. and please notify me about your blog and i will surely read yours.... may be your posts can relate my feelings! :)

Starting with my posts...  you are always welcome for any kind of comments- appreciation, criticism, funny lines!!  Hope this will make your feelings grew more  :)   Have a happy time  :)